A tide has turned in my life.
I can't really discuss it right now but it's been very hard...
and heartbreaking.
Things are changing at a rate that I can't really keep up with.
I have done a great deal of soul searching
and praying
and crying
to try to find meaning to all of this.
I know that one thing is for certain.
I have to take some time to devote to me.
I'm still forever the devoted wife and mother but I feel like
I'm losing myself.
When I look into the mirror I don't see myself anymore.
I see someone trying to be what others want.
I see a woman that is afraid to step out because I'm afraid to fail.
I see a woman who has pushed herself to the limit to live up to unrealistic expectations
and hates to say "No."
I know that I can't be alone in this.
If there is anyone else who feels the way I do, then make this year a great one.
Take time for yourself.
Do the things that make you happy.
Say "No" once in a while.
I know that I will.
P.S. The Divine Mr. M and I have started to renovate
our farmhouse and we can't wait to share it with you!!!
